25th September 2006,
5.00pm Monday. As usual finishing blog before go back- lock the door in case any disturbance from outside. Fri CG was good, worship lead a bit stuck, coz most of the people not sure about the songs that I lead..sharing was good- an overview of the weeks' material on "My Father, my God"- 1st- My God as myFather, 2nd- My Father who is good, 3rd- The Father who forgives, 4th- The Father has choosen me, 5th- The Father, the Gardener, 6th- The Father who discipline, 7th- The Father who hugs. A week of prayer and fasting, and study on the topics of 'The Father'. Very relevant, and this week will be "Fathering Pastor Conference". There are more than a hundreds of Pastors from all over the corners in Malaysia will be coming- mainly from the interior places- most ministered to the Orang Asli. This is our 2nd time organising the conference- with the hope to bless the pastors, those that has sacrifice their lives for God's people. God has provide more than enough for the conference- we will be subsidising the accomodation, transport and everything- to bless the pastors.
Saturday has been a full day for me. 1st Oct will be e-THIS Live, and we are trying our best to solve whatever teething problems- bugs to prepare for system implementation. 23rd Sept is also my daddy's 3 years in heaven. I miss him so so much. Went for dinner with Benji and Roland at e-Gate (Subway). After all done, Benji fetch me back home, and in the car we discuss few things- and one of it touched about forgiveness. He mentioned that "To forgive" is "To forget". To wipe up all, and renewing one relationship as how God has forgiven us. I agree with him in certain way, but not about forgetting. When somethings happen- in your heart you may forgive a person, but it doesn't really mean that you forget all. Things had happened, and nothing can change that. Unless I'm a computer that every single memories wipe out from my hardisk, or else it's still there. I argue on that- but he is not very happy. My meaning of forgiveness- is to really forgive from my heart- yet things are different in a way that I might not able to treat the other person as it is. Sometimes, as the season goes- things happen, things change, and I am accepting the changes. Yet, forgiveness is not of dwelling on one's weaknesses and stop you from going forward.
After the discussion in the car, my heart was so painful and aching. I went to the swimming pool and cried for 2 hours. Am I that sensitive? Why I cried? It's not of what Benji said or whether he offended me, no it's not. I just so sad- seeing my own spiritual life, how I've been struggling and about to climb up- and yet, it's just so difficult. I just couldn't accept that my heart don't forgive others...and I'm back to square one. Have I forgiven others? Checking my heart- again and again, deep search deep. I confess it all, if there's any person that I still hold the biterness, I release to God.
I receive a few smses:
" Love isn't about compelled to do anything! It's about whether you allow Him to flood you with healing rivers of Love,or closing up and not allow Him to work".
"Forgiving is NOT forgetting! It is giving your suffering to Him. When you have truly given ALL of it to Him, you will experience release from pain. The "not forgetting" part means learn from the mistake and don't fall for it again. Otherwise, you will be burned again. God wants us to learn from our experiences."
Father, I look you You, search my heart O Lord, and see if there is any offensive ways in me, Lead me to Your everlasting. Let the meditation of my heart and word of my mouth be ever pleasing to You, my Lord. I forgive all, and help me to treat others with the same love as before, and not of seeing others 'different'. Help me to be slow in speech and active in listening. Let my words ever pleasing You- let it be edifying, and tearing ones' down. Forgive me of my carelessness of speech, if anytime I've hurt the others, forgive me- and please Lord, bring healing to the others.
Monday, September 25, 2006
Thursday, September 21, 2006
To Start Somewhere...
21st September 2006,
5.27pm Thursday evening. Today is happening day. I went to Pantai Mutiara Hospital early morning with 2 of my collegues- Choong and Magdalene. Have a short overview of e-THIS system and the workflow. Work as usual, training, department meeting, and normal routine. I appreciate all that the staff has done, even though sometimes we got a bit quarrels, but learning to see beyond the weakness and accepting the non-lovable things. Learning to look beyond the black dot, and appreciate the white surface. Easily said than done. It's always relationship that is so difficult to deal with, relationship that builds and destroys. What I can learn here? Still..no man an island, and we need one another. I need to relate, and I love to relate to others. I am learning- even getting to know new members in Abundance CG, a different set of environment compared to my previous CG, learning to relate and learn from the wise. Abundance CG composition is well balanced: with married couples with kids, older people - Pastor Mei and Pastor Eddie, Susie (Ps. Sam's wife), young couples, and few of singles and young adult. It's different from my old CG with all young adults, and some couples and married young couples.
I got a mail from Pragas yesterday. I just got to know that he gonna resign and give up his job to go full time missionary course for half a year, then proceed to his calling into mission field to Sri Lanka for another 2 years. He's giving up his work, his home and everything- and persuing the higher calling God has for him. It's not easy, require great faith and such passion for God. It's still go down to the relationship with God- the friendship with God, the love for Him to move out and touch others. Yes, I am encouraged. I'm always encouraged to see people of God doing great exploit for Him. I was once on fire, and will do anything at all for Him, but now I've diluting down, stilling down...The cares of the world has draw me a distance from God. I've hurt Him again and again. I have to get serious and mean what I want to do for Him...
Another person that I want to give thanks for is Benji. A man after God's own heart. I told myself I'll never never put any expectation on him. I've seen so many friendship injured because of expectations on one another-broken trust, disappointment, different phase of life, people come people go. I pray that I will always cheerish friends that God has put along my path. I'm thankful, for people He brought to encourage me in my time of sadness - always pointing me to Christ, keeping me from falling away. Benji has always been a good friend. His honesty and love for God, his powerful testimony, his sharp word of knowledge, indeed a blessing to those who knows him. I hope the best for him...in whatever he does, the Lord will blessed and reward him plentiful.
Friends are friends, God is God. Where is the focus? I learned that in all things, God will always be the focus, no one else, but Christ alone. He is the Centre of the Mark...in everything we do. With this wonderful people come along my path, where is my stand? I must start somewhere...It's long, the mediocre has been long,...what You want me to do at this point, O Lord? How Lord? Where to start Lord? I want to love You more. Yes- start small, in knowing Him in Prayer, communion, His Words, devotion- lifestyle of worship- then in Cell, Family, Church...Can I do it Lord? I've been discouraged and disappointed so many times, can I do it? "Yes, Focus on Me"....Thank You Lord, for giving me the 2nd chance, one after another. Thank You for Your Grace that's so free...I will try my best Lord, please be patient with me. I love You, Daddy!
5.27pm Thursday evening. Today is happening day. I went to Pantai Mutiara Hospital early morning with 2 of my collegues- Choong and Magdalene. Have a short overview of e-THIS system and the workflow. Work as usual, training, department meeting, and normal routine. I appreciate all that the staff has done, even though sometimes we got a bit quarrels, but learning to see beyond the weakness and accepting the non-lovable things. Learning to look beyond the black dot, and appreciate the white surface. Easily said than done. It's always relationship that is so difficult to deal with, relationship that builds and destroys. What I can learn here? Still..no man an island, and we need one another. I need to relate, and I love to relate to others. I am learning- even getting to know new members in Abundance CG, a different set of environment compared to my previous CG, learning to relate and learn from the wise. Abundance CG composition is well balanced: with married couples with kids, older people - Pastor Mei and Pastor Eddie, Susie (Ps. Sam's wife), young couples, and few of singles and young adult. It's different from my old CG with all young adults, and some couples and married young couples.
I got a mail from Pragas yesterday. I just got to know that he gonna resign and give up his job to go full time missionary course for half a year, then proceed to his calling into mission field to Sri Lanka for another 2 years. He's giving up his work, his home and everything- and persuing the higher calling God has for him. It's not easy, require great faith and such passion for God. It's still go down to the relationship with God- the friendship with God, the love for Him to move out and touch others. Yes, I am encouraged. I'm always encouraged to see people of God doing great exploit for Him. I was once on fire, and will do anything at all for Him, but now I've diluting down, stilling down...The cares of the world has draw me a distance from God. I've hurt Him again and again. I have to get serious and mean what I want to do for Him...
Another person that I want to give thanks for is Benji. A man after God's own heart. I told myself I'll never never put any expectation on him. I've seen so many friendship injured because of expectations on one another-broken trust, disappointment, different phase of life, people come people go. I pray that I will always cheerish friends that God has put along my path. I'm thankful, for people He brought to encourage me in my time of sadness - always pointing me to Christ, keeping me from falling away. Benji has always been a good friend. His honesty and love for God, his powerful testimony, his sharp word of knowledge, indeed a blessing to those who knows him. I hope the best for him...in whatever he does, the Lord will blessed and reward him plentiful.
Friends are friends, God is God. Where is the focus? I learned that in all things, God will always be the focus, no one else, but Christ alone. He is the Centre of the Mark...in everything we do. With this wonderful people come along my path, where is my stand? I must start somewhere...It's long, the mediocre has been long,...what You want me to do at this point, O Lord? How Lord? Where to start Lord? I want to love You more. Yes- start small, in knowing Him in Prayer, communion, His Words, devotion- lifestyle of worship- then in Cell, Family, Church...Can I do it Lord? I've been discouraged and disappointed so many times, can I do it? "Yes, Focus on Me"....Thank You Lord, for giving me the 2nd chance, one after another. Thank You for Your Grace that's so free...I will try my best Lord, please be patient with me. I love You, Daddy!
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
I'm worship leading this Fri...
19th September 2006,
It's 6.20pm, hmm...yes, it's late and I'm still in the office, what are you doing here, Shirley- you may asked. Hehee...I just finished typing 4 songs to use for worship leading this coming Friday. It has been long since the last time I worship-lead in Cell. Esther asked me to help out in worship for the upcoming Fri-CG. Can't believe I can be given another chance to serve. I'm just so happy,.. after such long time. I'm still not sure which Cell to settle down with, but higher percentage will be Abundance CG. Most of the members are married, young couples, and just a handful of singles. Yet, I feel comfortable, a balance- I can learn a lot from the 'older' people :PP
Today is routine, e-THIS gonna get LIVE this 1st October, and yet the system still have a lot of bugs- a lot more to change, and the staff has been practising and familiarising with the features. Gonna visit Pantai Mutiara this Thurs, and meeting with HOD tomorrow to discuss on Medical Supplies charging- hopefully all able to work well. Need to structurized my thoughts, and the messange that I want to put across during the meeting, or else I will be bombarded with a lot of complaints and ridicules. I'm anticipating more to come, new system, new reno, newness in my own life, newness- a fresh start to know Him more....
It's 6.20pm, hmm...yes, it's late and I'm still in the office, what are you doing here, Shirley- you may asked. Hehee...I just finished typing 4 songs to use for worship leading this coming Friday. It has been long since the last time I worship-lead in Cell. Esther asked me to help out in worship for the upcoming Fri-CG. Can't believe I can be given another chance to serve. I'm just so happy,.. after such long time. I'm still not sure which Cell to settle down with, but higher percentage will be Abundance CG. Most of the members are married, young couples, and just a handful of singles. Yet, I feel comfortable, a balance- I can learn a lot from the 'older' people :PP
Today is routine, e-THIS gonna get LIVE this 1st October, and yet the system still have a lot of bugs- a lot more to change, and the staff has been practising and familiarising with the features. Gonna visit Pantai Mutiara this Thurs, and meeting with HOD tomorrow to discuss on Medical Supplies charging- hopefully all able to work well. Need to structurized my thoughts, and the messange that I want to put across during the meeting, or else I will be bombarded with a lot of complaints and ridicules. I'm anticipating more to come, new system, new reno, newness in my own life, newness- a fresh start to know Him more....
Monday, September 18, 2006
Jesus: To be rested in Him alone
18th September 2006,
4.32pm Monday. It's time to go home. Rain heavily today, got wet running to coffee shop for breakfast this morning. The weekends was good. Fri, went for CG, supper with Benji, Winnie and Andrew, then Saturday work the whole day for eTHIS training. Sunday is the Play "My Father, My Hero" organised by the CATs (Creative Arts Trooper Group). Manage to invite a non-Christian friend to the Play and the message is good- about God as our heavenly Daddy that loves us unconditionally, agape Love.
The title for my blog today is about 'resting'. I have a verse craved on a glass, a sovenior given by friend- written on this verse: "In quietness and in Confidence shall be your strength" (Isaiah 30:15). I need to come rested quietly in His Presence and assurance of His love. Life pace has been very fast- I couldn't catch up and many times just tag along, and flow with the crowd. Like a little child that just venture into the unknown, trying to get into the culture and trying to adapt with the environment- searching for more, and compromising here and there, getting acceptance from others, running around without direction, not sure where I am heading- getting LOST! Yet, His hands never let me go, allowing me to go through the wandering land, learning to walk, run and fly- then fall flat and soar up again. He is my all in all, my security, my provision. There is none like Him, no one else can touch my heart like He do. He satisfies, He satisfies, He satisfies my desire. I just need to hold on to that truth and not to be drown in pity party sorrows. Laerning to love myself and pampered myself- also discipline in my walk with Him. Not entertaining the lies of the enemies, but to only believe what the Bible said about me, what God sees in me. Yes, I'm holding on- and here am I, Lord, take me.
Forgive me Daddy, for doubting You and angry...such childish attitude, I wanna change. I come afresh I pray Lord help me to start afresh, only to please You, only to love You, to hear Your voice, to fall in Love again- bring me deeper, deeper in love with You...Jesus hold me close in Your embrace....no more pity party, no more sorrows- but victory, joy and love.
4.32pm Monday. It's time to go home. Rain heavily today, got wet running to coffee shop for breakfast this morning. The weekends was good. Fri, went for CG, supper with Benji, Winnie and Andrew, then Saturday work the whole day for eTHIS training. Sunday is the Play "My Father, My Hero" organised by the CATs (Creative Arts Trooper Group). Manage to invite a non-Christian friend to the Play and the message is good- about God as our heavenly Daddy that loves us unconditionally, agape Love.
The title for my blog today is about 'resting'. I have a verse craved on a glass, a sovenior given by friend- written on this verse: "In quietness and in Confidence shall be your strength" (Isaiah 30:15). I need to come rested quietly in His Presence and assurance of His love. Life pace has been very fast- I couldn't catch up and many times just tag along, and flow with the crowd. Like a little child that just venture into the unknown, trying to get into the culture and trying to adapt with the environment- searching for more, and compromising here and there, getting acceptance from others, running around without direction, not sure where I am heading- getting LOST! Yet, His hands never let me go, allowing me to go through the wandering land, learning to walk, run and fly- then fall flat and soar up again. He is my all in all, my security, my provision. There is none like Him, no one else can touch my heart like He do. He satisfies, He satisfies, He satisfies my desire. I just need to hold on to that truth and not to be drown in pity party sorrows. Laerning to love myself and pampered myself- also discipline in my walk with Him. Not entertaining the lies of the enemies, but to only believe what the Bible said about me, what God sees in me. Yes, I'm holding on- and here am I, Lord, take me.
Forgive me Daddy, for doubting You and angry...such childish attitude, I wanna change. I come afresh I pray Lord help me to start afresh, only to please You, only to love You, to hear Your voice, to fall in Love again- bring me deeper, deeper in love with You...Jesus hold me close in Your embrace....no more pity party, no more sorrows- but victory, joy and love.
Thursday, September 14, 2006
Yo-Yo Expression
14th September 2006,
5.50pm now. It's Thursday. The week gonna end soon. Time just flies, so fast. And I'm lingering around. Now is 2006, and I'm still lingering around. Today I'm very emotional, I don't know why. Is it to do with PMS again? But my menses not come yet, already over. This week rather still, very routine very slow very draggy. Work has been real routine, I don't have much friends in work to talk to and confide. It's not that I need people to confide, just that most of the staff are very seniours and difficult to make conversations. My work here has been really stagnant now, yes- even though management, but then I feel I'm not a good leader, I just don't know how to motivate staff. When got problem I'm not strong enough to back them up. I'm just too young and 'unexperience' to move up, or maybe I'm still the little 'timid' Shirley. It has been 3 years in management, yet I feel as if I don't really achieve anything. Feel so bored with the routine work, don't know whether it's time for me to have some change. Work is rather boring and nothing much to look forward to. Yet, I press on, believe God is trying to knock at my character, intergrity, I really don't know. I don't like to be in Managerial Position, it's probably I'm people-concious, or people-pleaser. Man-pleaser. Always mindful of what others said and what others see about me. I know I have to really change that. Or else my life will be drive only to please people.
I really don't know how to express much. My words are few, my vocabs are few. My English not that good, even though I'm Eng-ed. I don't know how to sweet talk people. I am just that, and I don't like the way I behave, don't know how to talk, don't know how to learn- no motivation at all. What a Christian?! What an example? PR no good. I always like to think bad about myself, always not satisfied. Today was so sad- and feel so lonely. Sometimes there's no reason for that. Then I linger on, probably I entertain the thought, the lies of the enemy- saying Shirley, you're bad, you're bad, very pitiful, nobody's child, no one loves you..you're nothing. Even I know what the Bible said, I'm God's child- yet, sometimes, or many times I feel so defeated and lost. As if not rooted firmly in the Words.
I can be high and mighty at one time, and after few days, drop down flat, defeated. There is no consistency. I really need God's strength to overcome my weakness. "Your Grace is sufficient for me, Your Strength is made perfect in my weakness". How to be consistent? This week ACTS talking about Prayer. Prevailing in Prayer...Am I prayerful enough? How do I approach prayer? Oh Lord, I need to buckle up myself, and I can't do it with my own strength. At time, I feel You're so far. At times, I feel I can't reach You...and I feel as if I'm drowning apart, and it's so long to reach You. Daddy, rekindle that fire Lord. I want to please you and You alone. Not man, not others. I want the first love, the passion, the love, the purpose of life. And most of all I need You. Strengthen my inner stances Lord, strengthen me I pray, tht I will not swayed to the left or right, but to remain steadfast, holding on to Your commandment.
5.50pm now. It's Thursday. The week gonna end soon. Time just flies, so fast. And I'm lingering around. Now is 2006, and I'm still lingering around. Today I'm very emotional, I don't know why. Is it to do with PMS again? But my menses not come yet, already over. This week rather still, very routine very slow very draggy. Work has been real routine, I don't have much friends in work to talk to and confide. It's not that I need people to confide, just that most of the staff are very seniours and difficult to make conversations. My work here has been really stagnant now, yes- even though management, but then I feel I'm not a good leader, I just don't know how to motivate staff. When got problem I'm not strong enough to back them up. I'm just too young and 'unexperience' to move up, or maybe I'm still the little 'timid' Shirley. It has been 3 years in management, yet I feel as if I don't really achieve anything. Feel so bored with the routine work, don't know whether it's time for me to have some change. Work is rather boring and nothing much to look forward to. Yet, I press on, believe God is trying to knock at my character, intergrity, I really don't know. I don't like to be in Managerial Position, it's probably I'm people-concious, or people-pleaser. Man-pleaser. Always mindful of what others said and what others see about me. I know I have to really change that. Or else my life will be drive only to please people.
I really don't know how to express much. My words are few, my vocabs are few. My English not that good, even though I'm Eng-ed. I don't know how to sweet talk people. I am just that, and I don't like the way I behave, don't know how to talk, don't know how to learn- no motivation at all. What a Christian?! What an example? PR no good. I always like to think bad about myself, always not satisfied. Today was so sad- and feel so lonely. Sometimes there's no reason for that. Then I linger on, probably I entertain the thought, the lies of the enemy- saying Shirley, you're bad, you're bad, very pitiful, nobody's child, no one loves you..you're nothing. Even I know what the Bible said, I'm God's child- yet, sometimes, or many times I feel so defeated and lost. As if not rooted firmly in the Words.
I can be high and mighty at one time, and after few days, drop down flat, defeated. There is no consistency. I really need God's strength to overcome my weakness. "Your Grace is sufficient for me, Your Strength is made perfect in my weakness". How to be consistent? This week ACTS talking about Prayer. Prevailing in Prayer...Am I prayerful enough? How do I approach prayer? Oh Lord, I need to buckle up myself, and I can't do it with my own strength. At time, I feel You're so far. At times, I feel I can't reach You...and I feel as if I'm drowning apart, and it's so long to reach You. Daddy, rekindle that fire Lord. I want to please you and You alone. Not man, not others. I want the first love, the passion, the love, the purpose of life. And most of all I need You. Strengthen my inner stances Lord, strengthen me I pray, tht I will not swayed to the left or right, but to remain steadfast, holding on to Your commandment.
Sunday, September 10, 2006
MPS Scientific Conference, Crown Princess Hotel, KL 8-10th Sept 2006
10th Sept 2006,
2.47pm Sunday. Yup, just finish lunch and now waiting for time to pass on to travel to airport. Going back Penang in 3 hours time. My flight is 6pm. Time flies, so fast it has come to the end of my trip. KL trip has been quite pleasant, pretty enjoyable, even though quite tired runnign around town.
I reached KL on Thurs about 9.30pm, and took KLIA Express to KL Sentral; frm there took another Putra LRT to Ampang Park, then walk to Hotel for check-in. By that time already 11pm plus. Wow, can't believe I can be so independant in travelling now. Probably I've learned from Singapore trip experience, know how to explore and venture different places, different route. It's good to travel and be away from work, and rest, not forgetting meeting lost lost friends . Overall, I'm blessed in this trip.
Angie stayed with me in the hotel on Thurs nite, and we went for supper (Dinner for Angie) in Mc-D till 3am. It's great, to share on the updates - things in church, the happening in Cell, frens that we known -who got married and whoever has been attached. Tiring but a fulfilling day. The next day Fri I had breakfast in the hotel, and after that start my travelling to Dang Wangi, then interchange to Raja Chulan station. Meeting up with Herbert for lunch and as usual, he shared so much on his encounter in his relationship. I was pretty shock to hear that he gonna get married Jan next year. He said he just started relationship a week ago. Wow, that is unbelievable. Indeed God is working in his relationship encounter. Hmm..another new couple. This week itself I've known of 2 new couples: Herbert and Roland.
After that I went shopping alone in BB Plaza, quite a varieties of clothing and cute stuff but didn't buy anything. No sales, got to wait for next year. After shopping around, supposed to meet up with Jenny but she couldn't make it last minutes, so I manage to grab Kawai to accompany me for dinner - that's my night.
Sat is a full day, probably not, only half day conference. Skip the last concurrent session to go KLCC for movie. Meet up Jaime and my old old long lost coursemate- Foo Chee Keong, hearing the updates, life has been going well with others, promotion, family, kids. Cool! I watched "CLICK" with Kawai, enter late- the movie quite alright, good story line about family. Rating, ok only.
Yeah, I'm now in Lighthouse Fellowship, Kawai's room. He is sleeping soundly, yes, must be very tired accompanying me go shopping and movie. Don't wanna wake him up, let him sleep. Today's service is long, 3 hours plus- more on ministering. Ps Joseph ministered to the people, God is ministering His presence in the church. I was so touched and enlighten to see God moved mightily in the place- people touched, cried and transform in the heart. The worship was great, I enjoy it so much. Maybe it's also because I'm familiar with the worship songs, only a few that I never heard before but can catch up after a few times singing. Pastor shared on book of Joshua 23, about finding the rest in His presence. About holding fast to His comendment so that we don't swayed from left to right, but to stand steadfast. Very timely message. I seen the church has grown, people coming out giving testimony and giving glory to God for what He has done. Overall it's a blessing.
Wow, I'm tired, got to end this blog and it's time to go to airport. Tomorrow will be another week of challenges. Praise God for the wonderful week....Penang here I come :P He's sleeping like a baby, let him...Oh boy, I'm so tired!
2.47pm Sunday. Yup, just finish lunch and now waiting for time to pass on to travel to airport. Going back Penang in 3 hours time. My flight is 6pm. Time flies, so fast it has come to the end of my trip. KL trip has been quite pleasant, pretty enjoyable, even though quite tired runnign around town.
I reached KL on Thurs about 9.30pm, and took KLIA Express to KL Sentral; frm there took another Putra LRT to Ampang Park, then walk to Hotel for check-in. By that time already 11pm plus. Wow, can't believe I can be so independant in travelling now. Probably I've learned from Singapore trip experience, know how to explore and venture different places, different route. It's good to travel and be away from work, and rest, not forgetting meeting lost lost friends . Overall, I'm blessed in this trip.
Angie stayed with me in the hotel on Thurs nite, and we went for supper (Dinner for Angie) in Mc-D till 3am. It's great, to share on the updates - things in church, the happening in Cell, frens that we known -who got married and whoever has been attached. Tiring but a fulfilling day. The next day Fri I had breakfast in the hotel, and after that start my travelling to Dang Wangi, then interchange to Raja Chulan station. Meeting up with Herbert for lunch and as usual, he shared so much on his encounter in his relationship. I was pretty shock to hear that he gonna get married Jan next year. He said he just started relationship a week ago. Wow, that is unbelievable. Indeed God is working in his relationship encounter. Hmm..another new couple. This week itself I've known of 2 new couples: Herbert and Roland.
After that I went shopping alone in BB Plaza, quite a varieties of clothing and cute stuff but didn't buy anything. No sales, got to wait for next year. After shopping around, supposed to meet up with Jenny but she couldn't make it last minutes, so I manage to grab Kawai to accompany me for dinner - that's my night.
Sat is a full day, probably not, only half day conference. Skip the last concurrent session to go KLCC for movie. Meet up Jaime and my old old long lost coursemate- Foo Chee Keong, hearing the updates, life has been going well with others, promotion, family, kids. Cool! I watched "CLICK" with Kawai, enter late- the movie quite alright, good story line about family. Rating, ok only.
Yeah, I'm now in Lighthouse Fellowship, Kawai's room. He is sleeping soundly, yes, must be very tired accompanying me go shopping and movie. Don't wanna wake him up, let him sleep. Today's service is long, 3 hours plus- more on ministering. Ps Joseph ministered to the people, God is ministering His presence in the church. I was so touched and enlighten to see God moved mightily in the place- people touched, cried and transform in the heart. The worship was great, I enjoy it so much. Maybe it's also because I'm familiar with the worship songs, only a few that I never heard before but can catch up after a few times singing. Pastor shared on book of Joshua 23, about finding the rest in His presence. About holding fast to His comendment so that we don't swayed from left to right, but to stand steadfast. Very timely message. I seen the church has grown, people coming out giving testimony and giving glory to God for what He has done. Overall it's a blessing.
Wow, I'm tired, got to end this blog and it's time to go to airport. Tomorrow will be another week of challenges. Praise God for the wonderful week....Penang here I come :P He's sleeping like a baby, let him...Oh boy, I'm so tired!
Monday, September 04, 2006
Singapore: Sweet and Sour
4th September 2006,
5.05pm Monday. Has been a long holidays 4days, 3 nite in Singapore. Long holidays, sweet and sour memories. There's a phrase: To write the hurts on the sand, and crave the blessings on the stone, something like that. I shouldn't have write it in the blog, probably the brief one. Singapore trip still a good trip after all that happen. It's tiring, yet fulfilling. I was blessed, and hurt at the same time. Yet all that happen is meant something- a lesson to learn. I see the world is just so big, many many people, different in character- weakness to able to acccept. I just realise I wasn't a patience person, I can just see the fault in others yet I discover the real flaw in myself which require correction. A person that is bitter inside, and have yet to learn the art of forgiveness, self confidence. I was so mindful of what others said about me, the comments others posted to me on my character, and entertain the thought that I'm not well enough. There's a saying: What you say is who you are. And if I continue to be like that, it will destroy whatever good things the Lord want to do in my life.
Sweet memories- meeting up with Heong Beng, and he shared with us how the Lord lead him in the workplace, how he manage to get leave for his wedding anniversary, and how the Lord continue to speak to him in his circumstances. I learn frm him, a childlike faith, a nice man. I meet up with Olivia, she's 7 months pregnant. Wow, so fats huh? She drove me back from Orchard to Yishun and we cook pasta together for dinner. Nice home, well decorated with small little garden. We chatted and watch Singapore Idol till about 10.30pm then they drop me at Yishun MRT. I took MRT back Bukit Gombak, and waited 1 1/2 hours for Felix to come back to open the door. Angry, exhausted but still able to sleep well.
Next day, meet up with Dr Teoh. Catch up for a while on the updates, and he showed us his little daughter's picture. Very nice, cute. Then go around Suntect City and Esplanade, after that take a MRT back Johor all by myself. Have a great fellowship with Celina, and her CGL Katrynn, then Saturday back Singapore to take bus back Penang. Reached Pg 6.00am, back home sleep a while, then wake up to go church for ushering. Thanks my holidays. Sweet and Sour...anyhow it's still enjoyable holidays.
5.05pm Monday. Has been a long holidays 4days, 3 nite in Singapore. Long holidays, sweet and sour memories. There's a phrase: To write the hurts on the sand, and crave the blessings on the stone, something like that. I shouldn't have write it in the blog, probably the brief one. Singapore trip still a good trip after all that happen. It's tiring, yet fulfilling. I was blessed, and hurt at the same time. Yet all that happen is meant something- a lesson to learn. I see the world is just so big, many many people, different in character- weakness to able to acccept. I just realise I wasn't a patience person, I can just see the fault in others yet I discover the real flaw in myself which require correction. A person that is bitter inside, and have yet to learn the art of forgiveness, self confidence. I was so mindful of what others said about me, the comments others posted to me on my character, and entertain the thought that I'm not well enough. There's a saying: What you say is who you are. And if I continue to be like that, it will destroy whatever good things the Lord want to do in my life.
Sweet memories- meeting up with Heong Beng, and he shared with us how the Lord lead him in the workplace, how he manage to get leave for his wedding anniversary, and how the Lord continue to speak to him in his circumstances. I learn frm him, a childlike faith, a nice man. I meet up with Olivia, she's 7 months pregnant. Wow, so fats huh? She drove me back from Orchard to Yishun and we cook pasta together for dinner. Nice home, well decorated with small little garden. We chatted and watch Singapore Idol till about 10.30pm then they drop me at Yishun MRT. I took MRT back Bukit Gombak, and waited 1 1/2 hours for Felix to come back to open the door. Angry, exhausted but still able to sleep well.
Next day, meet up with Dr Teoh. Catch up for a while on the updates, and he showed us his little daughter's picture. Very nice, cute. Then go around Suntect City and Esplanade, after that take a MRT back Johor all by myself. Have a great fellowship with Celina, and her CGL Katrynn, then Saturday back Singapore to take bus back Penang. Reached Pg 6.00am, back home sleep a while, then wake up to go church for ushering. Thanks my holidays. Sweet and Sour...anyhow it's still enjoyable holidays.
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